Hi I understand.Iam 47 and Iam trying really hard to find my birth mother.Sometimes I think it's not meant to be and that perhaps Iam being selfish but there is a need to know even if it is just to speak one time.Everytime I say I WILL stop looking I always seem to try again but one day I may stop.After all there is a reason for it all that perhaps we are not destined to know.Maybe one day.......